[Since Kaoru reached for his hand, Ryou will take that chance to grab his and squeeze it with all of the fear and bitterness he was dying to vent. It made him feel better somehow, even if it was only something as small as that.]

I know... I know... But I wanted to be better than that. I don't want to even consider something like that! But these people... They're horrible...

[His grip tightens a little, his knuckles a pale white.] Absolutely horrible...